Someone...

I’ve moved on. No more liking the one whom I really liked before. He’s already a past to me and I should look into my present and future.

It wasn’t until early this year, I’ve taken a liking to a guy. At first, he was just an eye-candy. To my eyes, you look presentable and I like the way you carry yourself. I just like to see you at that time.

After few weeks, you’re becoming more interesting. Something happened where even I couldn’t believe it. I guess, my guts about you are just too strong. The speculation was right. I didn’t do anything and it just appeared right in front of my eyes.

After that incident I started thinking and I become more interested. My assumption at most of the times are correct. I’m not sure why.

Anyways, I’m becoming more interested in you. Almost everyday, I long for your presence. I want to see you smile and I want to smile at you. I want to show you that I like you but I was just too shy. Sigh. At this time, I had a crush on you. I was too shy in the beginning, I become panic or nervous whenever you’re near.

That particular day, our last paper. With God’s willing, we met a few times. Eye contact yes, but we don’t talk. One thing, you and I are from different course. Not even in the same class. That day, we met for the last time last semester.

I thought you might be taking winter semester and you didn’t. Just know that, I really do miss you a lot. Of course, I don’t even get to know you but I want to see you. For that 3 months, I learn to calm down and slowly figuring out my feelings. Just to know, whether it’s a short term feeling or am I really liking you.

However, when we start the new semester, the 2nd week. I saw you. For the first time after 3 months. I was screaming after I saw you. How happy I was that time and I was smiling the whole day. So, I guess, I really do like you that much. That much which I really want to get to know you.

I really don’t know what to do now. I don’t know if we are having mutual feelings to each other or you don’t like me. I know it really does look like I’m chasing you, which I am actually. But, will you accept? I’m not sure.

But let me just say one thing, I’ll keep showing that I’m interested with you. I like you, really I do. I want to get to know you, yes I do. If it doesn’t turn out well, at least I’ve tried. Better than not trying anything and regretting not doing it. InsyaAllah, if we are meant to be together, then we will. If we aren’t, that just mean God has prepared a better person for us. Amin. :)

Not yet!! :D Wait till buka puasa then I post up the picture. Will edit this post later on.. :)